Friday, April 01, 2005
yahooo. after a year with blogdrive, im moving on to blogspot! hahaha..just to try a little variation..so to those people visiting here, BLOGDRIVE IS MY PAST. well, this is still open but there will be no more new posts. so, kung nagbabalak kayong tanungin ako ng "msta kna?", visit my new blog nln po. thnx.
Posted at 12:11 pm by gel17
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
w0w. i cant believe that there are only three days left..tatlong araw na lng para mglandian ng landian, karahan ng karahan! haha. ill miss all of u, classmates..ill miss going out for the flag ceremony while miss patino watches us from afar. ill miss ms pike's amazing eyes that can see through everything. ill miss the abby david loveteam..ill miss the scandals, the issues, and the landians. ill miss the dirty classroom, the baliw people and the food being passed around. ill miss all those laughs we shared. ill miss everything about triseven. khit wala ng may gsto saten, alam ko, the best pa rin tyo. wla ng pakealaman.
Posted at 10:12 am by gel17
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Sunday, February 27, 2005
I've been dreaming for so long
To see you smile right back at me
From where you are
and guess what? dreams come true..because the eternity i spent looking at you, was returned by a glance that lasted for a second or two. and that made it all worthwhile...
Why can't you see me like I see you?
you may never know what i see through my eyes. my eyes might be betraying me, like everyone does. but even in a world of betrayal and lies, fate still finds a way to make me see that in the distance where you stand, im still here and you're still there...
You told me life happens
Once you close your eyes
but i had to open them and see the reality right before my face. i did, and it's not so bad..just the feeling of your hand brushing against mine was enough..it was enough to make the longing stop.
Sino tong nakatingin?
Anghel bang magliligtas sa kin
yes, my angel in the cold dark night. your voice that leads me to salvation. thank you for that second where i could see myself in your eyes. sing for me once again, i seek deliverance...
And everytime I see you passing by
I'll just stand here waiting for you
and i will still stand, waiting for the time you will waste yet another fleeting second on me...
...at ayokong magising....
i never want to wake from this blurry dream..because sometimes, reality can make me so tired. and so it's time to close my eyes...still waiting for your smile...
Posted at 09:44 pm by gel17
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
yes, he does. and it's me. only me.
joke.
i am currently living in an ephemeral blackhole. i feed myself with deceptions and lies. and im happy here. why? because lies make me happy. no sarcasm here. i really am happy. because id rather deny myself the truth than face the fact that he doesn't even know me. am i not in my right mind? well, i don't care. as long as im happy. maybe this obsession will end one day. maybe ill forget i ever liked you. maybe its too late when you finally say that you like me too. maybe it just cant be. im sick of it all. im sick and tired of maybes and if onlys. sometimes, i just wanna shoot your vocal chords so you cant even utter a word. morbid but it is of great help to me. because without your voice, i can go on without it taunting me. i know im going crazy. you know why? because i dreamed of you again last night. and the night before that. you see, it's been two nights and you keep haunting me! what can i do? i cannot escape you! even in my dreams, you're pushing me deeper into this blackhole! how long will i suffer? am i not created to experience happiness? im sick of it all. but then again, i continue to exist. i exist in lies. and that's fine. because in my world full of lies, im happy im alive. once i go out to see the truth, it just stabs me with so much pain. i love my pretend world. it's really ironic, because i pretend that everything is just the way i wanted it to be but then the smiles it cause are genuine. and when i look at you, all i can think of is the day when i wont be able to anymore. im afraid of that day. and all i can do is pretend that its fine because in this make-believe world, only a lie can make me smile.
Posted at 07:43 pm by gel17
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Friday, December 31, 2004
its the last day of 2004. yes, i get sentimental when im alone....and hits me big time. i really miss my friends..when i look back this past year, i can't help but smile. it was nice meeting triseven and miss santos. it was nice being friends with cla, jellix, joti, marsy and soleil..i received so many blessings that i can hardly count them all. im so happy i was friends with leeann, dax, tabs, everyone i know.. and when i look back, it's sad to know that all i can leave is the legacy i etched in everyone's memories. but then again, why look back? it's just another new beginning....
Posted at 02:41 pm by gel17
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